Maryse Matar

Growing up, I constantly heard the wonderful ways my father described Lebanon. 

He’d talk about the natural beauty of the land, the rich history, the delicious food and the generous people. 

To my father, nothing compares to the polarity of the country’s weather. In only 30 minutes, one could be skiing in the northern mountains then drive down to the sun-soaked beaches on the Mediterranean coast.

I heard about the vast flora and fauna that engulf the land. I learned about Lebanon’s layered history showcasing traces of civilization dating back to the Phoenicians, Greeks and Romans, with the monumental architecture of Baalbek, Byblos, Tyre and Anjar.

Lebanon is alive with dance and other cultural traditions; it has always been well known for its nightlife, clubs and grand weddings. 

The streets that people crowd for celebrations are the same ones flooded with protestors. Whether it was against the garbage crisis, increased taxes, or the continuous corruption that has been magnified in every level of society since the 1975-90 civil war, the people have remained resilient.

Mansourieh, a village in Lebanon. [Photo © Patrircia Abdallah/Unsplash]

However, that resilience is not enough anymore.

On Aug. 4, 2020, there was an influx of Instagram stories on my feed. For the first time ever, all eyes were on Lebanon, but not for the beauty my father so poetically described. 

It was the day the catastrophic Beirut port explosion, forever changing the country and the lives of its people.

I was 5,472 miles away, yet it felt like the land beneath me trembled even though the ground I stood on was not Lebanon, but Canada.

Thousands of tonnes of ammonium nitrate, along with vast supplies of fireworks, fuses, oil, kerosene and hydrochloric acid were stored within a hangar, combining every ingredient needed to construct a massive bomb. 

The explosion destroyed buildings, historic monuments, critical infrastructure and countless homes, leaving more than 200 people dead, 7,000 injured and 300,000 homeless. 

No words can describe the horror millions of people witnessed, the tragic sights and sounds, and the touch of broken glass from shattered homes.

I was 5,472 miles away, yet it felt like the land beneath me trembled even though the ground I stood on was not Lebanon, but Canada.

The scene of destruction a few days after the Beirut port explosion. [Photo © Rashid Khreiss/Unsplash]

For once, we saw people across the world advocating for Lebanon. People took to the streets demanding change. It felt like the world had thrown a lifeline out to sea while the country and its people were drowning.  

After less than a week, I started to notice the attention fading. People moved on to other issues and events. What felt like genuine hope for change, quickly turned into the realization that this was nothing but a mere performance by online spectators. Concerns about Lebanon became a fleeting thought.

For us, however, concerns about Lebanon are anchored into our minds. We still didn’t get the chance to move on from that day.

It’s been more than a year since the tragedy occurred. People in Lebanon continue to suffer as the country stumbles from crisis to crisis.

People are crying for fundamental human rights. They don’t have basic necessities like food and electricity.

No one should have to beg for medicine as if it were gold. 

Fathers shouldn’t have to sell their furniture to feed their newborns. 

Mothers shouldn’t have to bury their children.

The universe should not get to break these rules. There should be more to life than simply surviving. 

Fathers shouldn’t have to sell their furniture to feed their newborns. Mothers shouldn’t have to bury their children. The universe should not get to break these rules. There should be more to life than simply surviving.

Yes, the people of Lebanon are resilient. They are filled with strength. But, our own strength is not enough anymore. The people of Lebanon need support from those outside looking in.

Having basic human rights like healthcare and nutrition should not be a privilege.

While people in Lebanon beg for their rights, I beg you not to turn your eyes away. Don’t turn off your screens. Instead, read the messages. Hear our stories. Feel the tears of those who mourn endlessly.

I hope to see the day when an Instagram story lingers with people for more than 24 hours. I wish the world could walk bearing some of the weight my people carry. 

Every time you savour our food or enjoy our culture, think of the Lebanese child who couldn’t do the same. 

As November 22 marks Lebanon’s Independence Day, I no longer want to linger on the pain of my people. Instead, I want to think of Lebanon’s beauty, about the country that it is meant to be and the future it could have.  

I still hope for the day I get to see the Lebanon my father describes in his stories. I hope you get to hear about them, too. 

But for now, I leave you with the words of my father, Challita Matar, from his book يا وطن كيف الحال؟ (My homeland, how are you doing?).  

This image comes from Challita Matar’s book of poetry يا وطن كيف الحال؟ (My homeland, how are you doing?) [Photo © Maryse Matar]
Lebanon you stay
The history of your people 


From the grass, from the trees,
From the thorns and from the flowers,
From every point of your sun, 
From the millennium 
From the water plains 
From your hills on the shore 
From your mountains

From the eyes of your children 
And everything that time repeats 
The cycle of tyranny is crowned with wild thorns

You come back again 
Reborn from new 

From your wounds, from oppression, 
From your hunger, from poverty, 
From your soil of rock,

A flower will sprout
It smells like freedom 

It is born from fire
From the wind, from the hurricane, 
From the snow, from the rain,
From the beach and your mountains,

The history of your heroes in the veins of your generations
From the eyes of your children, your torch will shine
And we follow the journey

And we stay, Lebanon
We live in your honor
We die for your dignity 
Until: long live Lebanon 
Long live your independence

By Challita Matar
Translated by Maryse Matar

Even though I did not translate my father’s poem word for word, I transcribed it in English:

For those far and beyond who have not laid eyes on Lebanon’s beauty;

For the Lebanese people scattered across the world who do not know their mother tongue;

For the new generation separated from their land and forced to build their roots in new soil;

And for those who feel disconnected from their culture, yet still bleed red like us.

To my homeland, I don’t need to ask how you’re doing because I know that from the ashes of our cedar trees, we will rise once again.